2014 was full of potential, but on the eve of my 31st, it literally fell to pieces. I've spent, and continue to spend, much time simply holding the pieces together. I've become quite good at this game, which really just makes it worse. I'm not sure when I became *that* girl to allow other people's decisions to completely dominate my life....but for now, that's who I am. It simply sucks.
I'm at a standstill in other relationships that I never realized could be fragile. I hate going home. I admit it. I know people make mistakes, and I'm thankful this mistake has hurt no one, only reputations.
So 2015, be kind. Help me regain control. Help me be trusting again. Help me accept the changes made. Help me put these pieces back together much stronger than before. Help me be a better friend, and to show more appreciation. Teach me that it's ok when things don't go as planned.
